Blythe Nyx

Pineapple

Chicken

Cloud

Blue

Tree

Cigarette daydreams

Rocks

Snow

Boarding

Cheese

Grass

Socks

Happiness

Christmas tree

Stars

Bamboo

The ocean

Glue

Dog

Bob

Road

River

Pee

Running

One day I was eating a pineapple when I saw the chicken cross the road. I had to ask someone why the chicken crossed the road so I flew up to the clouds through the blue sky. On my way there though, I ran into a tree and knocked a bird out of its nest. I hit my head so hard I started having cigarette daydreams. Next thing I knew I was laying in a pile of rocks while snowflakes fell on my face. I stood up and saw someone boarding the window of my favorite shop closed. I got so angry that I went and took a picture of them, and told them to say cheese. The dude threw my camera in the grass so it got eaten by a cow that mistook it as grass. The only thing I could do to make myself feel better was to take of my shoes and just slide around in my socks. I’m telling ya, this is what brings me happiness. I was sliding so fast that I slid right into the big Christmas tree in the middle of town. Like straight up I slid inside of it. But inside I’m pretty sure I saw the stars or maybe that was just the lights on the tree. When I got outta there I saw a panda sitting on a bench eating some bamboo so of course I sat down next to him. He told me he just got back from the beach and the ocean is beautiful. I was like that’s nice and then realized I had to leave but when I tried to stand up my butt was glued down! Lucky a dog was running by with its leash hanging down so when I grabbed it, it pulled me right off. The back of my pants ripped off and behind me bob was watching the whole thing. So I ran down the road as fast as I could out of embarrassment. I almost fell into the river when I thought about what just happened and I was peeing my pants laughing. But I just kept on running.

Be so happy that when others look at you they become happy too😁

I was sitting on my floor and my mom walked it

She asked me what I had been doing and I told her I’d been in the sauna for the past hour

She told me that you’re only supposed to be in there for 20 minutes cause the heat can cook your organs

I was like oh

My heart is probs dying then

Oh they say we are too young,

We can’t really understand

We have a whole life ahead of us to experience.

We know nothing

So what would they say for the ones who died young

Did they never really live

If they were never “old enough”

1a If you are feeling down go to 2

1b If you are feeling happy go to 3

2a If you feel lonely go to 4

2b If you have felt sad a lot lately go to 6

3a If someone special is making you smile go to 5

3b If you’re really enjoying life rn go to 7

4a If you feel like nobody is really there for you go to 8a

4b If you feel like you’re surrounded by millions of people but you still feel like the only person on earth go to 8b

5a If you feel like you might be in love go to 9a

5b If you haven’t told them you like them yet go to 9b

6a If your friends are the thing getting you down go to 11a

6b If you feel hopeless because life is too hard go to 11b

7a If you feel like nobody can take you down from this high go to 10a

7b If you feel like sharing your joy with the world go to 10b

8a Be there for the people you love and tell them how you feel I promise someone cares for you so much you just have to make an effort. Sometimes we except to much for people and push them away when it’s not what we want. Make sure you are letting people be there for you.

8b This world can be so lonely but only if you choose, people need you and you’d be beyond surprised the people who feel the same as you. Anyone could be waiting for a person like you in their life.

9a Maybe you are in love so show that person how much you care or tell them. You never know if they really need that from you. If they make you happy don’t let them go despite what people will tell you.

9b If that person makes you happy you tell them how you feel and if you don’t get the response you wanted well it’s better to try than nothing cause you never know, maybe you make them smile too.

10a Don’t let anyone take you down. This is your time to shine, let the world be jealous of how happy you look. Life was only meant for us to be happy so embrace it and be grateful for the great life you have.

10b However good you are feeling right now it can only go up from there if you just share your joy. Smile at everyone you see, be kind and laugh often. These will be the days you live for. Don’t forget that anyone might need your brightness and joy in their lives.

11a If the people you call your friends make you unhappy and bring you down they are not your friends. Please don’t settle for unhappiness just to have friends. Find the people who make you smile everyday and who take the time to get to know you.

11b Life is hard it always has been and it always will be. But it is also an adventure and adventures were never meant to be easy. I know you might feel like giving up but I promise if you just find the good in everything and get back on your feet it’ll be alright.

It’s me Chynna just by the way

No service

And this is when I feel the most alive

I’m tired

I’m so tired

But not tired as in I need sleep

I mean my soul is tired

Someone help me

Someone please help me

Even though none of you can

I have no service

But I feel more alive than ever

When I’m back there I don’t know who I am

But up here

I’m all alone

And I don’t judge

And I can breathe

And I don’t have to be anything I don’t want to be

And nobody can hurt me

Up here where there is no service

I feel alive

Nobody can reach me

Not even a phone can change that

Maybe if I stare up at the sky long enough I can actually understand

I don’t have service I don’t work like a piece of technology up here

Because I’m alive

I escape

Away from the real world

Whatever that is

I have too

I have too sometimes

I do it before I break

People don’t get me and I don’t even get myself

Im telling you, someone

My mind is somewhere else

I wonder sometimes how people do it

I really don’t know

I really don’t know anything

Sometimes I feel like

They all left me

They all left me because I wasn’t good enough

But that doesn’t matter

Up in the canyon there is no service

and there are no house

No very many people around

And when I drive my car away

It’s like I’m the only person in the world

And one day I’m going to drive so far that I will finally find the place that I belong

“Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me danger is very real but fear is a choice. We are all telling ourselves a story and that day mine changed.”

– Cypher Raige

I talk to much. I should be more like a brick. They don’t say anything. Nobody really loves them but nobody hates them. Bricks can build a house and support buildings. They can be anything you want it to be. It’s just a rectangular rock but it’s also so much more.

K so this time I really do think I’ve gone crazy. I’m naturally a crazy out of the box that’s ordinary person but that’s not the crazy I mean.

I mean that I went from a month ago barely feeling a thing. I felt dead honestly. I slowly moved through the motions and I was fine with the motions. Go to school go home sit alone do nothing. Sure why not

But I broke out of it. I found what it is to be alive again, I know it sounds overly dramatic and it probably is. But here’s the thing why not make it all seem like a bigger deal!? My life can be extraordinary if I want it to. If I say it is. I’ll tell you my story with confetti and fireworks.

I’m feeling stuck in the same life. I come home and I’ll try and watch tv but I can’t it’s so boring. I think about texting a friend but man those friends I always texted they don’t even know what’s happening. So I’m trying to find what inspires me in life. So I’m looking for a purpose a meaning for life because there just has to be more than this.

I’ll write my feelings on this blog post. That you don’t care about do I even care about it? Am I doing this just for a grade? I’d like to say no but I find myself doing this every Sunday night. I can’t fight the responsibility I feel to get an A. I’d rather write something meaningless so I can turn it in on time, than face the fact of it being late so I can say something wonderful. I’m not a writer. But I want to be.

I want to be so many things. I want to do so many things but I find myself laying on my bed feeling overwhelmed by the fact that I’m nothing I want to be. And so I’m crazy I’m acting crazy because I want my life to be better and I want to feel alive as I possibly can!

I heard a quote once “to live is the rarest thing on earth for most people merely exist and that is all”

Well I just want to live

Thank you

And goodnight